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Leon...

I am so embarrassed.

Spectre's been dealing with some shite lately which means the new album isn't due to start recording for two weeks. And that's kind of when it was supposed to be done... Our label doesn't want to continue with us because we're taking too long. That's not the problem, however. Roadrunner Records wants to pick Spectre up and that's a big deal. It's a much bigger label and that's great and everything but apparently they have a stipulation in mind.

If I stay with the band, I have to lose weight.

Spectre went off his nut at them, but so far they're the only other label that want us. And can I really justify everyone else losing their jobs because I'm a fatty?

I feel like shit. Absolute shit. I am in shape, I dance, I work in a cafe, I walk everywhere. I'm very healthy because my mothers are big hippies. I'm just curvy. To lose more weight, I would actually have to be unhealthy and I'm not willing to do that!

I don't know what to do. And I don't want anyone else to know.

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[thetimewehave.livejournal.com]

Don't do it, Ser. This whole thing sound full of ick.

See I think, your health is the most important thing, and if you start eating less or working out more then your energy levels are going to suffer (to say nothing of your mood, your self esteem) and that's going to effect your music, in the long run. If you feel like shit now, think about how you'll feel in a year or so, maybe the band will be going well but are you going to be okay, knowing that you've had to change yourself to get where you are? Is the sacrifise of the way you live worth it?

I shouldn't have said 'don't do it' like that cos I sound like a bit of a dick, but I'm leaving it in so you know how I feel. But no one has the right to tell you what you should do with your own body, no one should try and bribe you into being any different with the promise of a record label or anything else. If they'd asked you to change your music style, would you? Play their songs instead of your own?

Do you really want a career with a label where the first thing they've ever asked of you has made you feel like shit? What if they keep asking more? What if none of you can ever change enough?

I do have a few scraps of faith left in the music industry; there has to be someone out there ready to take you all on, as you are, because of who you are.

I'm really mad at them.

[thetimewehave.livejournal.com]

I'm pretty fond of who you are too.

For your music, and your art, and how gutsy you are, how easily and strongly you love. And I don't think much of a record label who can't see any of that because they're too focussed on your belly. Somewhere along the way they've forgotten that it's supposed to be about music.

Lucky for the world there's still people like you and me.