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[rubyredstained]

It just fucking hit me that I am in the process of helping to create an album. That people are going to buy. Touring was one thing, because I have my gigs in the city that people come to, so I'm used to playing my mus for peeps, even if doing a metal concert is very different from a lovely gig in Trafalgar Square. But I have never ever had imput on something that was recorded and existed for people to play in their homes. Well. Besides the DVD and the live stuff...

It's weird. It's a heady feeling, but kind of frightening as well. Like...if I write shitty shite Spectre and his drogies might kick me out for being derivative or un-Prog, or all-around lame... Not that I think Spectre and his drogies are like that...

It feels a bit like responsibility. Which I'm actually good at when it comes to me, and a staff of thirteen at Mariposa. But being responsible to people...and to thousands of people all over the world? (I even have to friends-lock this because people read this now. I have fans...)

Holy.Fucking.Shit.

Comments

[by-a-starburst.livejournal.com]

I promise to never say the music is derivative or un-Prog, or all-around lame. (I know nothing about prog so you can be sure on that middle one!)

[un-amour-fatal.livejournal.com]

You freaking rockstar. Crazy days.

[thetimewehave.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I think it is a bit like responsibility, but I reckon when it comes down to the bones of it, so long as you're being responsible to yourself and the band everything else is gonna follow along, maybe sometimes like a screaming toddler but.

You know what helps with the overbearing weight of responsibility though? Wine. And Thai food. Green curry. It helps.