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[rubyredstained]

I owe you an apology. I owe your husband one too. I believed what Kat told me and I haven't said much to you for the past few days because I couldn't believe you would be married to someone like that. I was angry at you for not supporting Kat, and now I find out she was the one who was fucking up, the hitting her thing not withstanding. That was still pretty shitty, but now I have context and I know his mother and she's awesome. So I guess I know that's not all there is to know about him.

I'm so sorry. I fell for it hook, line and sinker. Mea culpa. I haven't been much fun, and I promise to lighten up right away. I guess I just...saw a little of me in Kat and I was projecting. That's why I'm pissed off at her but I can't tell her to fuck off. It'd only make things worse.

She really does feel horrible and so she should. She did a terrible thing. I guess I just needed to say...I'm back on your side. And when we're back home again, I'd love to meet your husband. He sounds like a wonderful guy from everything Lavinia's said.

She is amazing by the way. She called you her son so at first I thought she was was your mother. I guess it's pretty cool to have a mother-in-law who is so thoroughly accepting. I hope my mums will be like that! They're more of the 'best friend' type of ladies though. They don't really do the 'mum' thing.

I'm rambling. I think you're awesome and I'm sorry.

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[rubyredstained.livejournal.com]

Well, not as close as I thought. I guess this is a step though.

Thanks for understanding, Spectre. I still feel shitty, but it helps to know you don't hold it against me!

I'm being honest. Trust me. We're not together, we're just...us. She needs to sort herself out first. Maybe I do too.

Oh my goodness, that's awful, Spectre! My father died when I was young, but I was far too young to know the difference. I can't imagine that. And shit. Really? I'm sorry. My childhood was weird, but it was good. My parents are really parental, but I have Ben. So I get it completely. He didn't have to continue to care after he and my mum broke it off, but he did. I love and him that so much. And I wouldn't have thought anything strange about it! If anyone gets the adoptive family thing, it'd be me. I'm glad you have them.

That makes me really happy, Spectre.

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Steps are good. I think small ones, as long as they're in the right direction, are very much what Kat needs right now. I wasn't under the impression you were together, but it seems like it's something. Still, sorting yourselves out is good. I'm well aware of that.

I don't hold a thing against you, Serenity. You're more than welcome for that.

I'm sorry to hear you lost your father like that, even if you didn't understand at the time. Though I'm right glad to hear you have strong family figures to look up to, nevertheless. As I've said before, Ben sounds fantastic, and I love the sound of your mums, too. Family is family; and to my mind, blood has the least to do with it.

Serenity, I do believe it will always be my pleasure to make you happy.

[rubyredstained.livejournal.com]

It's something! I don't know what it is, but it is something.

:)

Ben and my mothers are wonderful and I wouldn't trade them for anything. Especially not the father I don't know. I agree. Blood does not a family make.

I'm really glad you picked me, you know? There are still growing pains and I know that. But I love it.

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And we can always say that something is more than nothing. I am a profound Spectre today...

Few things could make me happier than to know that you are so happy in your family, darling.

I'm very glad I picked you too, Serenity. Growing pains there may be, but you're still fitting in much more quickly than I could have anticipated, both musically and personally. The fact that Deirdre is warming to you so, in particular, is a great testament to that. I think we have a great many wonderful times ahead of us.

[rubyredstained.livejournal.com]

I like it!

You're a sweetie.

I think so too. And I really adore Deirdre. I'm glad my presence here isn't causing her too much pain. I've tried to take it easy with her and I think she can tell.

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

I do my utmost!

Deirdre is a very perceptive woman. And indeed, being so, it seems clear to me why she couldn't fail to appreciate you.