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[rubyredstained]

To be totally and completely open and sharing, there is a sexy, pink-haired goddess in my bed right now.

Last night was good.

Oh dear GOD I hope this isn't because of my mothers' ritual turned sexual encounter...

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Re: Screened

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

I'm worried about her too; though to be fair, that was true anyway. Kat will deal in her own way, but of course, I don't want to see you hurt, either. I'm glad to have made you aware of the whole situation.

You and Godric are darling. And my dear, you're very welcome.

Screened

[rubyredstained.livejournal.com]

I'm kind of unhurtable in this way as long as she doesn't hold me down and carve her name into my thigh or beat me up because I spend time with other people. She...won't do that, right?

Re: Screened

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

Kat may be fiery, but I'm quite sure you don't have to worry about anything like that. She has a wonderful heart, and it just pains me that that heart has taken such a beating.

Re: Screened

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It is horrible. She's still sleeping. Sleeping is good.

Incidentally, that thing I just told you I have only told about four or five people in the world, and I have no idea why I gave up that secret so soon after getting to know you. Probably because you're trusting me so I should trust you back, I guess?

Re: Screened

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

Sleeping is good; I'm glad she's found some measure of peace enough for that.

Then I very much appreciate the trust, Serenity, and shall always endeavour to be worthy of it. Your secrets entrusted to me, I shall keep as my very own. And now that I do know, if it's ever something you want to talk about, I'll be here for you. You can trust in that, too.

Re: Screened

[rubyredstained.livejournal.com]

Me too.

It's not something I have a burning need to tell people. But now you'll know why my thigh says 'Jason' if you happen to catch a glimpse. I sure as hell didn't put it there.

Re: Screened

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

That's truly awful, Serenity. I do hope this Jason was brought to justice for what he did to you?

Screened

[rubyredstained.livejournal.com]

No. No, I didn't tell anyone until I told Ben about a month ago. No one who saw it ever asked.

Re: Screened

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

Oh, goodness. I'm so sorry. I truly wish people cared more. If it's okay to ask... how long ago did it happen?

Re: Screened

[rubyredstained.livejournal.com]

I do too, Spectre.

It was about five years ago. I was with him for three years. I ended it. I think my one fear in this whole...being really quite visible thing, is that he'll come out of the woodwork. He's not dangerous, at least not to anyone he's not in a room alone with. I just don't want to be anywhere near that. I already have enough trouble believing I have any worth at all.

Re: Screened

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

I can certainly understand that fear. I had the same feeling about my father, though we've since come to a reconciliation.

It may not be much, but I should introduce you to two friends of ours who are providing extra security on the US run, Fable and Hamish. They're good people, if a little militant in character, and they know how to look after themselves and others. I'm sure they'll keep off all trouble-makers and intruders, and respond readily to any call for help. That being said, we in the band ourselves are also there to look out for you, and after all we've been through, have picked up a few handy tricks.

As to your self-worth, I can only hope that that's something we can help build in you. I know you'll do great things with us, but more than that, I know you'll be surrounded by love. It's something you'll have to take your own time with; but it's also a journey several of us will understand, myself included. My struggle with my sexuality caused me to behave in ways that contributed to my own self-loathing for a long time, and it was only once I met Peter and Ash that all that started to turn around.

Re: Screened

[rubyredstained.livejournal.com]

Well good!

Yeah, that I believe. It sounds like a good idea. I have a photo of him too. Several actually. Thanks, Spectre.

I really think I joined the right band...

Re: Screened

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

I wasn't sure whether to suggest a photo, but now that you mention it, I'm sure it would help. They, and we, have sharp eyes. Though I highly doubt you'll need to worry about him in the States, at any rate. And of course, Serenity, you are more than welcome.

Well, I'm very glad to hear you think so! I certainly hope we prove you right.