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Jul. 6th, 2010 12:44 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
I'm in bed with Noah OOoooOOOOooooOOOO no he's snoring SO loud. That's not sexy, Noers.
Anyway...some shit went down the other day. I can't really explain it or anything because it's not my thing to tell, but it could have ended badly. Like...end of Serenity badly. It's absolutely okay now, but that doesn't change that it almost wasn't. And after what happened to poor Joss...
I just wanted to make sure you know how much I love you. Because I do. Noah is my brother, and Godric is my sister and I think...I think you're my heart. You have been there for me in ways no one else has so often recently. I adore you and respect you so much for that. I really, really need you to know. I can be silly and flippant and sarcastic a lot, but your place in my heart is none of those things. It's real.
Thank you.
Anyway...some shit went down the other day. I can't really explain it or anything because it's not my thing to tell, but it could have ended badly. Like...end of Serenity badly. It's absolutely okay now, but that doesn't change that it almost wasn't. And after what happened to poor Joss...
I just wanted to make sure you know how much I love you. Because I do. Noah is my brother, and Godric is my sister and I think...I think you're my heart. You have been there for me in ways no one else has so often recently. I adore you and respect you so much for that. I really, really need you to know. I can be silly and flippant and sarcastic a lot, but your place in my heart is none of those things. It's real.
Thank you.
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Date: 2010-07-07 10:18 am (UTC)When we were in our old place, and the lease was running out, Joss wanted to stay there. He got a bit sullen-teenager about it (and I gotta say I miss that cos that I knew he'd pull out of, anyway...) and muttered something about "you just want to shack up with Serenity."
And I thought yeah, I do. Maybe not in quite the way he meant it, but I knew I wanted to live with you. I knew that nothing could be better. Even the rent-free thing came second on the list of reasons why living here was going to be good for me. Because you're here. And I knew I wanted to build my life around you being there. Because you're the heart and the core of everything as well.
So don't ever worry, because I know exactly what you're saying when you're being silly and flippant and sarcastic, and I love you too.
Thank you, for continuing to exist.
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Date: 2010-07-07 10:29 am (UTC)You're pretty amazing, Leon MacArthur. If anyone else said those things to me, even in friendship, I'd have freaked out. With you, it just makes sense. I'm so glad you did move in here. It's been...wonderful. So wonderful, I can't remember what it was like when I didn't live with you!
Hey, I'll continue to exist any time!
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Date: 2012-11-06 12:32 am (UTC)