Private and then filtered to Razvan

I hate it when you're sad.

I feel like a kid. It's scary to realise someone you look up to so much is just human. When someone who seems so brave to you because you built them up that way, looks utterly terrified...it means the world really is a terrifying place.

Hi, Razvan. That was all about Ben. I don't know what to say to him really, because he was so scared and that just meant there was nowhere to look for strength. Which isn't his fault at all; he almost lost his son. It was just...a little world-shattering, that's all.

I'm scared of everything right now. Could Noah relapse again? Could Pat find him? Could Pat find Ben and Andy?!

God, fuck.